Stories to Share.

He started asking me again a couple weeks ago when he could be in daycare.

We've had this conversation before. I stay home, you don't go to daycare.

He wants to know what my job is and usually, I tell him, my job is to be your mom. End the discussion with a kiss and move along.

But this day as he sat drawing pictures of smiley faced people and dreaming of fantastic playdates, I stopped my kitchen duties and looked at him and said; "I'm a writer."

"What's that?" He stopped and asked me.

At last, I had captured his attention.

I write things. I write stories about our life and share pictures of you. I go to meetings and write about those so people in the community can learn more about that. I've got a story to share, I'm writing a book.

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I have alluded to it many times over, not wanting to step over the line and admit it for fear of the what if it doesn't happen.

But if I can't even admit what I want to do, how will I ever make it happen?

I am a writer.

I've wanted to write a book for as long as I can remember. Before I even had this story.

And now I've got stories upon stories of who I am and what's gone on and what has changed me these last years. (Not many become a stepmom, a mom and lose their mom in 3 years time, my friends.)

For awhile I was working on a proposal and lately I've just been writing. Somedays essays come flowing out like water about things that still feel like yesterday. Other days I'm swamped with the pressures of writing for the Patch and trying to stay afloat with blogging too.

And then somedays I can't stop worrying about finding an agent that likes me, likes my writing style, likes my story and wants to sell it to a publisher. Wishing for a connection that would help me grab a foothold.

{Can you see why naptime is so very important to me now? Hence, why we are looking for a helper or nanny one day a week. I think another post on how my children are fitting into these appointments and writing should come soon, it may make you laugh.}

All of this to say, I've got a story to share and I finally believe enough in it and myself to say I'm going to do it.

Will you help me share it? And how can I help you share yours?