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Friday, May 23, 2008

168 Beats Per Minute.

2:00 in the afternoon.

I lay in a cold and sterile doctor's office.

Looking expectantly between my husband and my doctor as she moves the wand across my belly.


"Well that's your heart." She says after a few moments of waiting.

More waiting.

And finally, the most incredible, miraculous sound is heard.

One I could never even try to reproduce.

Ba-dump. Ba-dump. Ba-dump.

We listen for a few moments.

168 beats a minute.

And hearing that little heart beat pitter patter has made every moment of sickness totally worth it.

This pregnancy is different.

My body hasn't been handling things too well. Between major sickness, a seven pound weight loss and aches/pains, I am feeling the differences immensely.

A few have asked when and if I'll share pictures as I grow this time around.

I have to tell you, it was quite different to share my changing body online when it was just 10 people watching.

Maybe I'll change my mind.

So far, there's really nothing to see.

I told you, this time it's different.

Ba-dump. Ba-dump. Ba-dump.

168 beats per minute within me.

The miracle of life still amazes me.


Blogger charish said...

cool. Can not wait

May 23, 2008 at 10:09 PM  
Blogger Rachel said...

I know that feeling. The anticipation. The sweat. The relief. The rush of pure sweet joy at those tiny fast beats.
The tiny fear that it would be silent. I know.
Congratulations and blessings.

May 23, 2008 at 10:19 PM  
Blogger Melissa said...

Love you, and love this new little one. So privileged to share this journey with you. Mean it.

May 23, 2008 at 10:47 PM  
Blogger Brett & Kristin said...

Congratulations - again and again!! You and your family will be in our prayers. Thanks for sharing your joy with us!

May 24, 2008 at 12:29 AM  
Blogger Stephanie said...

Congratulations! I must agree, that is THE best sound. New life. Your baby. Many blessings to your new family!

Found your blog through a friend and I really like it!

May 24, 2008 at 11:01 AM  
Blogger Jon, Sara, Tyler, and Sophie said...

Congratulations again, S & J!

That feeling, when you hear the heart beat, never goes away. Each time the wait seems excruciating, as the doctor moves that little monitor. But, the rush of pure joy (and relief) when you hear those ba-daas, is just incredible. What a miracle!

Hopefully you will start to feel physically better soon, S. Thinking and praying for you daily.

May 24, 2008 at 1:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What joy to here that little one's heart beat.
I Love you.
Aunt Laurie

May 24, 2008 at 6:30 PM  
Blogger Crazed Mom said...

It is a miracle and so exciting even if you're not feeling so hot. All 3 of my pregnancies were unique experiences. Best wishes!

aka JaniceNW

May 25, 2008 at 2:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am very excited for all your family. I hope you start to feel better soon.I pray for you and baby every day. Love to all of you aunt Janet

May 25, 2008 at 8:50 AM  
Blogger The Lindahl News said...

It sounds like a love story is beginning for that little "beater" taking root inside of you, Samara.
May he/she continue to thrive!

May 25, 2008 at 8:57 AM  
Blogger Heather said...

Congrats! I'm so happy for you :)

May 26, 2008 at 8:37 PM  
Blogger stacey said...

Congratulations to the both of you and your growing family. I promise that I will call you when I get home! I love you and I am so excited for you.

May 27, 2008 at 6:12 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations! How lovely that you will have a new addition to your family!

May 28, 2008 at 10:21 PM  
Blogger Megasue said...

Words cannot express the joy i have in knowing that a new little baby from the P family will be joining our world. What a blessing for all of us!

May 30, 2008 at 5:28 PM  

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